speed wobble

Its Thursday, very tough day at work, feel like everyone around me is a heavy weight, I guess regular folk get tired and weary too. Its hard to stay positive though, when those around me are flat, both at work and at home. I have been inclined to make it my job to try lift them up in some way, not a good idea !! And it makes me cross, would these people not just make an effort !! And they don't have ED to contend with as well as regular life stuff !! Grrrrh!!
Anyway, let them at it, thats my plan for today. Stop fixing and meddling. Besides, today I am tired, vulnerable and a bit wobbly , so time to reign in and focus on what I need to do to stay on track. Firstly, magnify what is going well, and today, against all odds, I've stuck to my guns re exercise and nutrition, I passed the Thursday, little cheat test !! Hurrah !! Not sure about the rest of ye, but I get to a certain point with enthusiasm, then ED sneaks in the back door. Well this week I was ready and waiting and had necked back a fortisip before any debate began. Didn't feel so good for a few hours after, but it eased off and I'm very pleased I did, otherwise I would have felt I'd wasted another week, another opportunity and would only be dragging out this damn thing longer than necessary.
Kiz is not a cheater !!! I'm tired, irritable and upset, but thats ok, bed early and no pressure to meet anyone elses needs this evening. Well done , little kiz, it doesn't feel nice now but its a further step towards being true to yourself, .
kiz