skinny genes

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Wed, 11/08/2010 - 01:18
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just thought i might share a little bit of irony with you all... when i was deep in the condition i was controlling every single crumb that went into my mouth, counted every calorie and burned off every teeny weeny bit of energy i had left after all that!
The goal was being skinny. Staying the same jean size, never letting my body naturally develop in fear of the UNTHINKABLE: gaining weight.

What is SO ironic and pretty hilarious really, is that once I trusted the people in Marino, and trusted my own body, I realised that I was naturally slim, the 'skinny gene' trate that I had tried so incredibly hard to get through the control and self-torture of the condition.

just thought I'd share because before I began eating normally and trusting my body, I just couldn't believe that I could have the body I always wanted without even having to try or be unhealthy by entertaining the condition!

Therapists told me this day would come, where I would discover that I had been wasting my time in the condition: I had the body I always wanted all along, I just didn't trust my body/food enough to realise that life could be soooo much easier if I would be my body's friend and not its enemy!

I can't help thinking all the time and energy I wasted trying to control my weight when it would've just stabilised and been healthy and slim had I just trusted it and enjoyed life a bit while I was at it! funny that I could only see this after taking a leap of faith and trusting my body. that's why maybe it'll help some of you out there who aren't sure if it was possible. TRUST it, you just might have skinny genes!
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Wed, 11/08/2010 - 16:05
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Now I don't want to put a damper on things, but what if I don't have the "skinny gene", what if my natural body type is a bit "chunkier" than I want, lucky you if you fall into that category.
But then, really and truly, is that all you are about kiz, are your values so enmeshed in you size and shape. Well to be honest, they have been and still are quite frankly, but in a false kind of way. I prop up my self esteem by reassuring myself artificially through body control.
But thats not really who I am. I don't value that in other people, I value goodness, wholeness, honesty, integrity, loyalty, diligence, positivity and good humour. I admire people with all the above and a bit of a swagger in their stride, so what if they have a bit of booty on board, thats even nicer!!
So why the mismatch? Why can't I be the one with the swagger, well I'm working on it, watch this space!! As Marie says , there's a revolution in the air !! Skinny and miserable is so over!!!!
kiz

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Wed, 11/08/2010 - 21:05
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ill be honest i do not

ill be honest i do not understand this even though i am always told it - you can be thin and healthy ,thin and nourished. brainwashed into believeing restricting lead to thin i have a hard time beliveing this concept but hey what a nice one.... and a freeing one at that. a chance to have all i want at the moment an be happy.... i as kiz said so worry my natural weight or gene may be larger than my ideal.... another worry for the candle me thinks x

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