A really nice feeling

There's a lung cancer ad on the radio at the moment - a guy essentially saying that every breath he takes he now appreciates having survived lung cancer.

Just had a funny little thought. A year ago I wasnt really able to "be" anymore, now I am. Yeah, lots more getting better needed, but right now being able to "be" is something I am really happy about.

I don't go to bed at night a little concerned that I wont wake up in the morning. That's nice.

My hands dont shake anymore. I dont get dizzy. I can concentrate.

I am able to be. I'm eventually going to be free - "being" wont take such a conscious effort to keep me ok...but for now just being is a blessing and a bonus.