re workshop

Hello and thank you to the carers that came along to the workshop at the weekend and the one previous. The workshop stirred up alot of emotion for me, and I'm all cried out at this stage, at least for another while.
Today I focus back on myself and my own journey, I can get lost in wanting family to understand, learn, be different, be better, grow in their own self knowledge, which is all fine and would be helpful, but at the end of the day, I'm using behaviours to deal with my emotions, me , not them or anyone else, and I need to work at stopping this pattern and find another way. It's my pattern and I am working on this and want to be free of this, It's going to take time and practice, and might seem like the simplest thing in the world to a noncondition person, and it is simple ,but very very hard.
Condition loves me to get distracted in fixing my family, but today I resist letting my head get lost down that path and bring it back to me . Who am I , what am I doing, where is this all taking me.
Thanks to the family members that came and shared and were open to learning and keep at it, it so helps to share the burden and feel supported, even if misunderstood.
kiz