Proud of me

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Sun, 23/10/2011 - 14:28
Mulan
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Today I did something I never dreamed possible. I went to a cafe in town which I'd been to soo many times with friends. These previous times I'd order the coffee and I'd try to ignore them all eating beautiful scones of every flavour possible. But today I went in and I had a scone and tea and I really enjoyed it. I've been very stuck nutritionally on eating foods only deemed 100% nutritionally balanced and pre approved by the centre. But today it was lunch time and I was walking by it and went in ordered a raspberry scone and ate it with no guilt. Everytime I heard condition I told it to F*** off. No it probably isn't a substantial lunch I'm aware of that. No it didnt have protein in it but sooo what !!! It's what I wanted today. Free me wanted it. I can eat a nutritionally balanced Lunches for the rest of the week but today I listened to my body and this is what I wanted.

Eating it I felt very emotional. I was tearing up with happiness because this is such a big step for me. Anyway I just wanted to share this because I never imagined I'd ever do this. But I know nothing bad can come from this. ED is a liar. It's ruled my life for far too long. But take a deep breath and try something new today. It's one point to a free me and no points to ED today.

Love RD

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Mon, 24/10/2011 - 14:30
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Congratulations Rainbow

Congratulations Rainbow Dreams and what a beautiful name!! I rem when i had my first scone with a careworker and i felt so proud of myself too..i guess its all about baby steps and stepping outside of our comfort zone. I really relate as a huge part of my condition was healthy foods myths and not listening to teh body and what i really fancied more listened to what i thght i shud have or what others said were best for me. Efven now and im only just recovered so still have bit to go i am tryikng to step ouyt more and more and relinquish the routines and its all about more trust. At the wkd i was hungover and tired and i just craved sugear and i went with it but the thghts were ridiculous rather than just allow self to have these foods my thghts were the problem so the more we can just say no to the thghts and condition then the easier it wilol be to do these things i guess. After a session today i am going to really go with what i really need and feel be that pick and mix on a sunday!! But i guess whats important is to have nutritionally dense food also esp in earlier stages

Love butterfly xx

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