Positve

hi everybody,
I haven't wrote a post in ages so I thought I would give it a shot. Also because I'm practically recovered and I always come on to look at recovered peoples posts to see if I can learn a little bit more or get anything from them or anybody else I thought why not come on and write a post about a lesson I've been learning and hopfully I'll help somebody by this. For me I always think I have so much work to do in recovery, I'm never there, I'm never good enough, I just won't be able to do it, everybody else has go it sussed out,( but it's not true) when you come to your final stages and full freedom it's just about living and excepting that life isn't going to be perfect, ur not going to be perfect and everything is only temporary, but and this is a big but you will be able to cope, you will be able to live a life behaviour free and negativity free ( well it's only normal to have a certain amount of negative thoughts). I think the hardest thing for me was going back to school after being out of study and really missing most of school for three years. It was like I was back at square one, an alian again, completly lost, confuzed, a loner, weirdo whatever negative thoughts I was thinking at the time. But perserverence in the end is all it took, if you want recovery you just have to say to yourself you know what I'm just not stopping till I get this, this is what I want and if they can do it, I sure as well can! Believe in better! Believe that your life is worth fighting for and a big thing is really forgive yourself! Stop beating yourself up what kind of results is that going to bring only more self hatred and guilt! Start to realise your a sensitive human being and look after yourself because even your closet family member does not know what you need!! And keep saying 'at least' even if it's a sort of negative at least, it's something!
My love goes out to all you wonderful ice bergers.
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