Our Recovery Pet Corner

erika thanks for your post it made me smile, i think it is so funny that i am now a dog owner,when i was so lost in the condition i hated animals, i would never notice a dog on the street and peoples pet annoyed me, i didnt see the point in having another burden on you.

a month ago my boyfriend got me a dog, at first i though it was a ridiculous idea, how could i love and look after a dog if i didnt even love or look after myself, i even had thoughts about food and weight in relation to the dog, i was scared to feed her to much.

i was peterfied that i could not be able to love nipper, to find emotion for her, i though that she hated me and i would be not good for her. when my boyfriend asked me would i rather my mac book or the dog be taked i asked how cruel would they treat her.

a few days later, i began to manage the situation, i was left alone with nipper and realised i had to look after her basaic needs she had all her trust in me. and i knew that i had to fulfil her needs.
i began to take pleasure in training her and watching her learn.
looking at her sleep and allowing myself relax with her on my knee.

nipper allowed me for the first time take myself out of the condition, i was walking but instead of with the condition, i was walking with nippper on my mind her welbeing and caught up in how well she was learning, the exercise was for her not me, i sat in the park and watched her play and did not count the minutes till i had to do my next task. she relaxed outside my house in the sun and i allowed myself read beside her casue after all it was for nipper, so some of the guilt of relaxing was being taken away.

she made me smile when her lovely brown eyes would stare up at me and she would tilt her head and and wonder what i was doing.

her want for human company amazes me, her need for love and affection, to be at the centre of attenion.
i praise myself on what i have though her, how she listens to me, how i toilet trained her, thought her to walk on the lead and come when she is called. to go to bed and not to bark when she wants something. i take pride in my achievements.

when i walk down the street i notice the amount of people that smile to see her woodling down the street, and it fasinates me the number of people who stop and chat and pet her and aer so interested in her.

i have gotten more from nipper over the last month then i could have ever imagined.
she is teaching me to live, she is slowing me down and allowing me see the world,
i have also learned that so many people are aware of their surroundings, i would never have noticed anyones dog.

i would throw my mac away any day rather then get rid of nipper,

ill put photos up when my i get internet for my other computer,

lots of love
leah xx