"Nothing Ventured,nothing Gained"...tip for discovering for yourself why recovery is worth the fight

Hi Guys,
One way that I overcame some of the fear of recovery and the unknown was to draw a line down the middle of a page and on one side write down the fears(left side) I had about recovery.......and on the other all the things I had to look forward to and be excited about(right side) with recovery. On the right I allowed myself to dream, to imagine, to be open to the world of possibilities, to be specific.........turns out that while yes—the left hand side contained some fairly valid points, the right hand side absolutely KICKED IT’S ASS outta the water with both its quantity and quality, so much more points—so many EXCITING points! And even though the left hand side did carry quite a number of fears, many of them were things that, while I couldn’t fully grasp at the time, I now realise they would never factor or become a major issue with recovery.....things like the fear of no longer being noticed or acknowledged, or still not approving of myself----they are the fears of someone who is not fully recovered, they play to conditions thought pattern—they are BULLS&*T....therefore they don’t count!!!

Travelling.(listing all the places specifically), going on a nelephant, holding a koala, Niagara Falls, The Empire State, seeing the pyramids, skiing, carework, helping others in distress, spending a night away with my friends-and enjoying it, having a friend trust in me, nice meals out, studying (like focused study) driving, going shopping for clothes I like not ones that look half decent on me, being a bridesmaid, meeting loadsa new people, experiencing new cultures, doing a make-up course, getting my dream car, being an inspiration to somebody-even just 1, having a vegetable patch, my very own beautiful beautiful garden, a sitting room with a view, diving, a hot air balloon ride, enjoying a night alone....snuggled up on the couch...fire lit...red wine in hand, being a godmother/aunty, writing a book/column or the sorts, making one person smile a day, the ability to belly laugh, a career I LOVE, a career I’m good at, meeting that someone special, saving enough and buying the MAC makeup I wanted.....................AH the list went on and on.

Give it a go, Dream big, Dream small, dream openly, dream without conditions. Nobody said its not a bit scary, nobody said its easy but everyone that I know the far side will say that RECOVERY IS WORTH IT....and LIFE is exciting. Trust that after coming the far side of condition....you will continue to fight, and achieve all you want from life. Eleanor Roosevelt has a beautiful quote that says
“The Future Belongs to those that believe in the beauty of their dreams” ......and as far as I’m concerned, never a truer word said for ED sufferers in recovery.

Remember Lovelies,.......Nothing Ventured-Nothing Gained. Stepping out of a condition way of life, the sheltered, structured, fearing rejection/failure, blaa blaa blaa...way of life, can be scary.......but the gazillions of possibilities and adventures that it opens up to you are actually SO SO SO EXCITING...

Much love, respect and hope to you all
You will get there......you will!! Just keep fighting the good (and so so worthy) fight
Saoirse (HAZ)