This is me...

So i need to work on figuring out and showing others who i am ..... so i thought i would challenge myself and see who i am without this ed...
I am funny
I am kind
I am fun
I am nice
I am hardworking and committed
I am a friend
I am a sister
I am a daughter
I am a grandaugher
I am a cousin and an auntie
I am determined
I am creative
I love working things out thats the only part my job i like
I like to paint my nails
I love love love my hair and cutting colouring and playing with it its my baby ha
I love clothes and shoes and topshop oh topshop its my biggiest weakness literally cant even walk past without going in and getting something ha
I love my little cousin and i am his deadly big cousin :)
I like xfactor
I love to fly and be in the sun on the beach toes in the sand sun on my skin i feel freer here like the condition cant get me here.
I love to draw
I love to dance and sing and yes that involves a hairbrush sometimes hehehe
I love makeup and i am good at it :)
I would like to be able to drive
I love music
I give more than i take but thats ok i like to make ppl feel good
I know that one day i will make a difference that all i do now is my training and the preview to something better
I am beautiful inside and out(new affirmation i will say regardless of waht my head comes back with, why should i believe anything less?)
I love the stars they bring me peace and calm, they are like dreams to me they hold my dreams and the babysteps i am taking are the steps to making these dreams my reality. i no longer am letting my dreams just be dreams but day by day fear by fear am making them come true so one day they wont be placed on stars in the distance - but i will be the only star in my life.
I am a good person, no logical reason why i am not.
I have the ability to make others feel good and smile and laugh even when i feel down an cant myself but then this actually helps me smile myself
I am compassionate
I am going to be free free free liek a bird in the sky carefree, my dreams will be my wings
I am couragous and strong
I buy the best presents ever! they are thoughtful and special to each person i get them for and they never fail to impress!now i am gettin myself lil pressies why cause i feckin' deserve it!
I love concerts something about the music and just dancing free when noone is looking
I am me who is that its who i am when i let go and forget the ed, whe i thonk noone is lookin or listening.

I wanna grow these parts make them so big they squash conditin choke it kill it so it can never utter another hateful degreading word to me. i guess the easy option is to not look at who i am and not say it everyday but i have believed conditon sh*te for 23 years i think i have waited long enough to try something else.... yes 24 is gonna be a new start, i will start to belive in myself, to and stop hidin who i am or being afraid of discovering who i am.