its all in the thinking

Dear icebergers, so its thursday and i cant wait for the wkd!! I have had a busy and challenging week but I know some credit is due and im looking forward to Sunday sitting back and relaxing. But for now i wanted to write a brief post on my thinking..When i feel a little bit challenged or am busy i realised i tend to over think and over analyse maybe this is the senstitivity i just dont know. But it can be planning silly unnecessary things and usually when i stop and say ok be present i realise its old condition thghts, like planning what ill have for brekkie or lunch the next day, when ill make it, when ill see or meet a friend when ill go for the walk. The thghts r very quick and i move swiftly onto something else. I was in the cinema wed night and i noticed that for the first 40 min i was somewhere else and i did try to redirect my thghts but only half heartedly. So i realised we have to be firm with the condition, with the thghts, with old coping skills that i no longer need. The condition in the past was used to having full rein and i was never even aware of my thghts...for me now its about coming into my heart more and living where i am. Im an organized person and thats ok and can be a good thing, but more of using it to my advantage than to my disadvatage would be a good idea at present.

The thghs can be very powerful and can easily be very negative without us even realising so i guess its important to try and catch them early on, focus on a dsitraction, this can be difficult as even as i watched a film, a good one at that the thghts were still going..however we do have the power and the choice to change the thghts and im not going to beat myself up for taking so long..as a child i became used to living in my own little world, where i felt secure, in control and now its just about trusting that i can let go of it, being patient and knowing that it will happen, its happened for others right??

Love Butterfly xx