health

Hey Butterfly,

Wow, I really admire your honesty and openess here. Its very brave of you to post this and show your vulunerability, I sense such strength within those fears and anxieties. Fair play to actually dealing with things, facing them head on rather than ignore them. I know its rough sometimes. I consider myself very lucky after all what I put my body through its still going. I have years of damage done to my health, much is only coming up now, but I always always believed the body has the ability to heal itself and I still do, that said, it doesnt just happen by itself. The longer your in it, the more damage is done and at the end of the day our bodies arent machines. But I do believe believe with care, time, nourishement in whatever form my body needs it will heal, it will, it wont let me down, and I wont let it down..

I really admire your courage in this post, sometimes I look at my own health and I know I still run from it for fear what may be lurking away there. Ya I have a few complications and I have honestly so much money put into recovery and into my health and still am.. BUT ITS WORTH IT, I AM WORTH IT. At the end of the day, you can always find more money but you cant find anther YOU.

I just wanted to say, I really admire your strength, most people wouldnt challenge or look at their health, its a scary thing sometimes. My god you really are taking care of yourself even if it isnt always easy. You are there facing a challening time and sharing your vulunerabiliy with people but you are dealing with it, not running, I admire that.. I admire your courage. Hopefully hon, everything will work out for you. I am 29 and God knows whats happening inside me after all the years. Hopefully highlighting the dangers will help to motivate people to keep fighting the fight because I used my health at times and still do as motivation to recover and just live life. Its important that health fears dont frighten us from recovery. I know for me for a long time I wouldnt even think of my health, first it didnt bother me, all the things the doctor said just flew over my head, I didnt connect with myself so I didnt care, then after a while, I started to get afraid and I did care but I didnt know how to deal with it at the time. Now, I just take each moment as it comes, I think of myself as healthy, lucky and I will face whatever comes if it happens. For now I am taking care of myself and repairing all the damage done. Anyway, use health fears etc as motivation, learning, sharing. Stay strong hon x

Hi Butterfly,
Yes, I can identify a lot with your post too! And as Rosebud said - fair play to you for facing up to any health issues now. When I first recovered, there were a few hints that all was not well - but the symptoms weren't strong enough to disrupt my daily life or appearance...so I ignored them! I wanted to get on with the business of living, not worrying about health! So I ploughed forward, full speed ahead, doing a lot of travelling etc... then about 2 years later I was forced to stop - the symptoms were so severe that they took precedence over everything else, and I really had to give full attention to my health. In this period, I have really seen how important health is, and how amazing and great it feels to enjoy a good meal, to feel full, to see the health and nourishment glowing in your hair and in your skin. All of this is amazing and worth sooooo much. When I was in the condition, and heard all about the damage I was doing to my body, I really didn't give a shit - I didn't take any of it on board, but it's so true that you do care when you're recovered.