extreme skinny celebs

i just watched a programme that i shouldnt have and it was extreme skinny celebs, i watched it twice and i have watched it before about a year ago and i druled over it,i used to write down weights and measurments of the celebs etc and work to beat them, and this morning i kinda got upset over what i saw,i felt sad that this is what i relly used to aspire to (still a little do) but i felt sad, angry, annoyed,i cried im confused a little(dont really know of its condition or me).of course who was number one skinny celeb? victoria bek, she was my pin up my motivation,my envy back in the days but for what? i actually dont know,i know curves are comming back and thats beuitiful really good. when i was watching this it said that 11 year olds are on pro ana websites , and i know younger ones are on it and have condition, which is so sad but all i could think of was my little molly, whos only two and is even into makeup and loves looking at magazines and clothes and im scared for what shell look for next.where n when does this thing of size zero and even double zero end?.
a size zero and doulble zero never made me happy ive never been happy with myself, i now choose to im burn all of my skinny scrap books, pictures, celebs measurments and weights etc tonight in the bonfire and am hoping some of ye will join to help end this shite of size zero crap thats impossible to maintain and dangerous and not pro recovery.for me its a life of misery and feeding condition and living off me own god dame misery which is pure and utter bull....
i want to help others but i guess i cant do that untill i help meself, so i choose to gradually get rid of condition piece by piece.
happy halloween beuitiful people
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