dear condition
Dear condition,
This relationship is going no where, you offer me nothing but misery, you neither support of encourage me, i listen to your every word but it gets me no where. you told me that if i listened to you i would not have to deal with anything, you said nothing would hurt me any more, that i would be invincible, what you left out was the price i would have to pay, not only would i not feel saddness but neither would i feel happiness i would feel nothing but numb, you became my only friend. you told me no one else cared, you said that nothing i did was good enough, it did not matter how hard i tried, when i began to succeed you told me i would never amount to anything.
when you saw me try to leave you shouted so hard i came back to you. whispering in my ear.
" i told you so, things are to hard without me", you told me i could not cope the emotions were to much, that to be without you, i did not know myself and it was impossible to ever find me. " well you were wrong", you lead me so far away, and naively i followed.
so condition this relationship is over, i do not care how loud you shout, i am shouting back, i will not allow you make me feel guilty, you will not make me feel like i am letting you down. you have done nothing for me, given me nothing only heart ache.
i deserve a better friend. so i will go my separate way no matter how hard you try to stay i will not give up till i have rid you from my life.
love leah xx
Leah I LOVE this post its so clever. You really taken condition out of your head stared it in the eye and really revealled how pathetic and manipulative and downright evil conition is. Good on ya-you've inspired me to write one of my own so here goes...
Dear condition,
Well well I can't remember the day I first met you, you just seemed to glide into my lufe unannounced and uninvited. You are like the bully who befriended the sensitive girl in school because you knew you could manipulate me into doing things for you. You knew you could seep into my head and brainwash me into believing I'm a bad person, that I don't belong in this world, that there is something wrong with me. You smothered all my emotions because if I don't feel anything its easy for you to steal my hope and my dreams. You whisper in my ear and tell me to push everyone who loves and cares about me away. You tell me its for their own good, you are nothing but a burden, if you just slip away and put up a wall they'll all be better off. And condition that's what you did....you played your stupid mind games with me for so long. Like a torturer you held me in the dark pit of limbo between life and death. You left me with enough of a sliver of myself that I didn't want to die, but you made me life so painful that I didn't want to live either. You did all of this until I was left a shrivelling 22 year old pacing the floor of a room, both afraid to leave the room and afraid to stay in the room. You made me afriad of life, afraid of myself, afraid of everyone around me and afraid of my own mind!
Lately I've been hearing your familiar voice again and thinking 'gosh your right life was so much better with you around'. You've been messing with my mind and making me glorify the past with you in it. You been saying to me 'what a waste you had it all with me you were tiny, and now look at you. You're going to see people at xmas who havent seen you in a year and they will never know how small you got...tut tut what a waste!' Yeah well condition YOUR WRONG you are a LIAR a FAKE a COWARD. Those people dont care what size I am they will just be excited to see me to see Sara. And they will be all the happier if you not around suffocating my brain of hope and positivity. Your a dead weight condition,a freeloader in my brain, you sucked up enough of me for long enoungh now pack up your guilt and anxiety your despair and manipulation your backstabbing your ugly and soul destroying coping strategies and get the hell out of my head. You think I need you condition but you're so so wrong. I have everything I need and everything I will possibly ever need within myself. I dont need you are not my friend. I aready have an amazing best friend and her name is Sara.
Mwah thanks Leah that feels great!
"NOELLE NOELLEE NOELLLLLLLLLL HEHEHE Love it :)x
wow! these are both amazing! sara some of your wordslike glorify never gettin small enough have really hit home... but your right the only one that is hurt by holding onto and believeing lies is me not anyone else.
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