credit for small change

Today I am doing something different, and that is making this post and giving myself credit for a very tiny change today. Sunday is typically a lazy day in my family, up a bit late , no schedule, breakfast can run into lunch. For me, the distorted thinking does not allow such, I'm usually up early and obeying condition thoughts. Today my family wanted to do brunch down town, my worst nightmare, oh god, how to get around this one, is my initial thought.
Okay the thought and feeling is, that I cannot do this, the menu won't suit, the timing won't suit, and what about the exercise requirement etc. Today I said to myself, okay, thats condition, thats distorted thinking, what does Kizzy want. Kizzy didn't know , other than that Kizzy did not want to face the condition backlash if disobeyed the rules. But Kizzy did not want to disappoint the family. So I said to myself, the least you can do here is try, you don't know what you want, condition has kept you trapped long enough. As the blog today says, to change is to live, condition does not like change, so thats what I want to do, I want to challenge condition in a small way, my family deserve that effort even if I can't do it for myself.
So I went and ordered cautiously from the menu, family were afraid to say a word and so not a word was said re my choice or the fact that I went out.
I may not have eaten a huge amount or ordered quite safely, but I changed the routine today, thats good. It was hard and I was rattled for several hours after, but it wasn't too bad. More importantly I am taking credit, kizzy, you did well, you tried something new, all these things will help you in the right direction. Baby steps are good enough and even if for family more than self, I did it.
Kizzy