Action talks.

I just wrote a long post about replacing the illusory control of the distorted mind with the real control of living freely, and the internet closed down for a minute and I lost it. I listed a few examples of times I've done that myself, all of them recent, because it is only in the last 6 months or so that I have begun to let go, and thus experience real control.
I won't type the lot again, but I will say that I am learning that I am in complete control, simply by choosing to be. I decide how I react to situations and I decide to trust in people, especially those who are trying to help me out of this. I'm getting there, and I have too much evidence now, that control is the flexible, condition-free mind, not to believe it.
Nelson Mandela said (quoting a poet,I think)"I am the master of my thoughts. I am the captain of my soul." I - when I am thinking in a completely free way - know what is best for my well-being. And I know I value happiness, and therefore work for this, and let opportunities come into my life.

The reason I entitled this post "Action talks" is becasue when I came back onto iceberg just a few minutes ago, after losing what I'd typed, I read the tip of the day. I'm glad I did.

I have all the theory and knowledge. I've seen many healthy, free people who recovered by walking the talk, and can hold their heads high in the full knowledge of being 100% in true control of their lives, because they let their lives happen.

Now, it is time to step out of the audience and participate in the play...better still, write and produce my own show.
Watching and waiting for a bolt of lightening to spur me out of the (granted, increasingly pleasant) life I'm living, and FULLY EMBRACE THE JOY OF THIS EXISTENCE.
John Lennon told us this is not a rehearsal, so I need to pick up all the amazing tools I've been given and taught to use, and build my life the way I want it.

I've experienced first hand the unbelievable lack of control you can end up having, if you get deep enough into this condition - literally having no choice about what you do or where you are, others making all the decisions because it's been decided you are unfit to make them. I know it would be impossible for me to go back to that.

But I must not - I mean this as a fact, not a self-beration; a simple, undeniable truth - allow myself to believe that I now have full control. I still don't.
Only when I let go and trust the world - there is SO much good in it! - will I really be my own master.
The effort I put into action will all be so, so worth it. I know that.

I just need to stop only knowing it. Instead, I need to live it, feel it, be that free, happy person.

I think it was Abraham Lincoln that said that some people miss opportunities, because they "come dressed in overalls and look like work."

I owe it to myself to do the work, and earn the maginficent wages of freedom.
Action, belief, and letting go of the illusion of control will help me.
I am doing this.
I am free. I am in full control. I trust.

I'm glad I had to type another post - double positivity coming from myself - it's all motivation!
All the best lovely people,
Michelle x