Before i start i just wanna say the biggiest thank you to marie :)
Today was many things .... but it made me see a lot.
1. that you never see how you are as in how sick you are, and waiting til you do or torturing yourself about whether you are or arent is just that TORTURE!!! its like the value of thinness your looking for something you will never see. i have trusted the condition for so long to tell me what i need and everything else suffered: ME, others, my trust in real people/professionals, my quality of life and slower recovery. its so pointless.