Fears and Recovery

friendships

Submitted by amanda on Sun, 05/02/2012 - 09:39

Yesterday, in group the discussion came up about friendships. I think, friendships for me have been a real up and down issue. In school, I had a good group of friends. We did a lot of stuff and it was a nice group because it wasnt all about drinking at the weekends and going to discos etc. It wasnt my thing nor was it anyboies elses thing in the group.I thought I was blessed because I really felt i fitted in. When condition came along though they completely abandoned me. I felt so hurt and annoyed and angered but more than anything annoyed.

let go

Submitted by Caitriona2 on Sat, 04/02/2012 - 22:13

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Trusting me, trusting you

Submitted by amanda on Fri, 03/02/2012 - 21:25

Trust has always been a big big issue for me. I remember even when I was little, it being repeated into my head- dont trust strangers, dont trust anybody but your close family. And so I didnt. I hated primary school, my teachers they scared me and they couldnt understand why I was always panicing. I couldnt trust them to ask questions, to say I didnt understand something, to say that some kids were really upsetting me. And so they gave up on.

obstacles

Submitted by amanda on Thu, 02/02/2012 - 21:36

Hey there

While I was in a session to day, I experienced a complete block. The topic of food and body image came up and I instantly didnt want to talk about it. I mean I did because I knew at some stage I had to deal with it, but today I just didnt want too. It finally came down to talking about the obstacles to being fully free, and now Im trying to pinpoint what my obstacles are, then maybe next week I can go back with a list that I want/need to talk about.

1 thing at a time

Submitted by Caitriona2 on Mon, 30/01/2012 - 14:57

dear all
i have had a strange few days
on my birthday i was in a 4 car collission i am fine and so are all the others thank god. my car has been written off and i am only getting 700 euro compo cuz thats all its worh now
this entire thing has reallly been a catalyst but also really left me a bit dishevelled

Credit

Submitted by kizzy on Thu, 26/01/2012 - 15:37

Just a quick few lines. I as previously posted have difficulty taking credit and also allowing family witness behaviour changes. Why, many reasons, fear based. Letting family see me eating recovery food without being self conscious is a work in progress. I had myself in deprivation for so many years and convinced that this was " good". Today I made a hard choice at lunch pro recovery and that is the real being "good". The harder choice for me is to allow myself nourish normally. Quite the opposite to non ed people where it comes naturally.

A bit sad...

Submitted by Michelle on Wed, 25/01/2012 - 16:44

I wasn't sure what forum or subject to select for this post, but I think 'Challenges' and 'Fears' are probably two relevant ideas, so I went with them.

Self-honesty is my aim here. Thank you in advance if you manage to bear with me.

The staff of my school just had a visit from a representative for a financial institution and savings, loans, mortgages, travel plans etc. were discussed. I left feeling both sad and irritable, but I didn't realise straight away that it was down to a mixture of the following:

ramblings from my brain to your screen

Submitted by lala on Tue, 24/01/2012 - 23:32

Hi.

So I feel quite guilty. I feel like I'm lying. Not lying exactly. But leaving out some truths. I can feel myself falling into old behaviours and I just am so determined not to fall down the hole again.
But there I am, my head peering down the hole longingly.

I want out of condition. I do. But I also don't. I'm not sure :(

I have been doing workbooks. And stopping many behaviours. And MILLIONS of affirmations. I feel like I'm talking the talk. And yes I've clawed my way away from condition in many many ways.

Distorted thinking - breaking out of an unrealistic world

Submitted by georgia on Sun, 22/01/2012 - 13:47

A very sad but perhaps deeply hopeful story was to be found in the sports pages and bulletins this week. One of Ireland's top athletes, Martin Fagan, was caught taking performance enhancing drugs. His story is one too typical of anybody who lives in a world of distorted thinking and false values, pressure and fear of change.

Your experiences with refuelling...?

Submitted by Rose on Tue, 17/01/2012 - 08:09

Hi dear fellow icebergers!

What were or are you experiences/how did or do you feel after you started refuelling your body again?

I am very surprised how much I suddenly seem to eat without its having any effect on how my tummy feels...it seems very fishy to me in a way how all that food seems to 'disappear' and it scares me a little...