Denial

self honesty

Submitted by Caitriona2 on Mon, 02/01/2012 - 15:28

Hello my wonderful angels i hope you are enjoyin recovery year 2012
i am not sure why i am writing this post but iknow i need to.
since coming to marino so much has and is changing in my everyday life i honestly feel more relaxed and at peace with myself i couldnt even think of over exercising or pushing myself self care has become important to me all forms of self care rest spiritual self care relationship self care etc

stop researching and start doing

Submitted by Caitriona2 on Fri, 28/10/2011 - 20:36

dear all my wonderful freedom fighters thank u little mermaid for ur most recent post about regrets
god i want to use my past regrets to fuel my current action i feel i am going around in circles i can tell u hand on my heart
1 i know that ed will never bring me happiness
2 any temporary relief i get is shortlived and the regret and guilt after especially this long into recovery is awful

ED may not always be part of my life but...

Submitted by Michelle on Tue, 26/07/2011 - 19:25

Something significant happened for me yesterday. It wasn't entirely awful, but certainly noe entirely pleasant either. I'd say I felt 50/50 about the experience, but with that mixture came necessary learning.

Here it is: While ED will definitely NOT remain a part of who I am or an element of my daily life, in the future, I cannot deny the fact that it will always remain something that HAS BEEN part of me.

Being honest with myself!

Submitted by Saldoo on Sun, 31/10/2010 - 12:24

Hello beautiful people!

feeling cheated

Submitted by amanda on Thu, 29/07/2010 - 09:50

Last night the lovely Dr.T rang my house to tell me that my bloods didnt come back too great and that I have to make alot of changes in a week. I hung up the phone and first of all felt bemused and then both scared and angry. Firstly I am soo angry at condition and maybe myself aswell. I am making huge changes, really going far in recovery, finding out about myself, my values and beleifs. I'm sticking with the meal plans, getting creative with my food and trying so hard on accepting my body. And then BANG, this comes along.Something like this comes along and threw me last night.

Cunning of Condition

After a very distraught 24h, preceeded by a tough few days, fighting condition with everything I've got, and trying my utmost to make recovery choices throughout my day, it snuck in the back door. Yes thats the cunning of my condition. "no one will know, take a little break from the fight today, sure you'll be back with your therapist tomorrow, take a little day off for yourself, you're exhausted, I'll help you feel better".
So this morning ED had me, lured me into breaking my resolve. Put the blinkers back on me and off I went, sure maybe I'm not that bad after all.

help

I'm sick of pretending pretending things are fine that i can manage this all on my own.... i am scared recently i can't see the light as clearly. i've been working and working at recovery but today and yesterday i'm finding it tough which is fueling the negativity self doubt.

Michelle Obama puts daughters on a diet...

Please could you read this article – would like to know your opinion – I think it is wonderful example how little people understand eating distress, I think we have a lot to learn about the prevention.
The unhelpful messages are coming from the top, we need to let them know about our Iceberg...:):)
Regards
Marie

Reform begins at home: Michelle Obama puts daughters on a diet as she launches anti-obesity campaign

the TRUTH(recovery voice challenge) to Ed lies/distortion....

hers is the TRUTHs to my lies i apolagie for not postin before i should have so her they are
xxx Ciara xxx

I am your friend
T:What kind of friend destroys you your health and wants you dead,puts uou down makes you feel like crap, controls you makes you sick and miserable and punishes you for looking after yourself.

You are not thin enough
T:You ar thin enough everyone thinks so except the ed, the number will never be good enough for it . others look at you and think im not like her im not that thin.not getting your period is sign of being underweight.

Denial and the lies EDs tell you....

I have been thinking about this for a few days now and about the distorted perception we hear so much about even though it can feel soooo real at times. Then I was online and found a thing on denial and the different lies that are eating disorders tell us. I thought hey im not that bad ill see which ones apply to me and to my shock they all did. Some are not mine others are but the point is they are lies!These are the lies i hear on a daily basis.

I am your friend.
I am not thin enough.
I am not sick enough other people are sicker.
It’s under control I can stop at any time.