Letting go and taking the risk!!

Hi Strong Sassy Freedom Fighters :)

I have been procrastinating about certain behaviours in recovery until quite recently. Afraid to let go of old habits...Afraid of the unknown....assuming the worst will happen if I don't do what the ED voice tells me. This has got me absolutely no where, just further negative thinking and distructive behaviours.

Over the past few days I made a commitment to ERIKA, not anyone else....I am recovering for me. Not my mum, brother, friends BUT for ME. Because I want a life full of beautiful and amazing memories, a life enriched with wonderful experiences and people....not to look back and remember days of sadness, loneliness, and denial. Why should I let anything hold me back from achieveing my dreams....expecially something that I has control over.

I am taking over the power, I am letting go and taking that risk. What's the worst that can happen....well I'll never know unless I experience life! Over the past few days I have been really putting this to practice and O MY GOLLY GOSH it has been totally worth it. I'm bubbling with excitment and curiosity. I have been going to different places, meeting different people. At times the voice comes knocking, pestering me about what I might have to eat, what if it goes wrong, etc etc. But if I constantly listen, then I am surrenduring back the power....and that ain't happening cos I trust that taking that risk will lead me over that finish line to recovery. ERIKA will be victorious!!

I am learning to appreciate the most simple things in life....I got such a buzz from making scones with friends!

Erika x