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Worrying about physical health

Hi All,

I'm still new to all of this as I'm only in my first week of therapy so it's still early steps twoards recovery. I suppose I'm lookin for some support or advice from people who may have been in my position. I had my first medical examination this week and the results haven't come back too good. Basically from my ECG it looks like II may have some cardiac damage due to my ED. I'm completely shell shocked since I got the results. It's after hammering home how much I've been living in denial about the seriousness of my condition. I've always known that living with an ED carries with it great risks to physical health but for months now I've been thinking no not me, I'm not 'bad' enough, I haven't lost enough weight to have done any damage, my condition isn't as serious as those others with 'really serious' EDs. Well these results have dropped me down to earth with a major bang. Its shown me that I can't trust my thoughts or my perception alone to keep me safe and healthy. Im completely shaken. One a good note though it has scared me into making positive changes to my diet.

So here's where I'm stuck-I'm just wondering has anyone else been in my situation? I really need the reassurance that any damage I have done can be reversed or at least haltered through recovery. I really need to have this hope that things can be fixed. Without this hope I'm going to find it really hard to maintain the strength to stay strong and positive about my recovery. Any advice or reassurance would be greatly appreciated!!

S xxx