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Guilt

Guilt is a wasted emotion and serves no purpose

guilt always seeks punishment

i was talking to my dad last night and telling him all about how guilty i felt for all the pain i had caused people and the family throughout my years of ed. he kept saying stop carrying it around you are in recoveryu now and doing ur best stop feeling guily but i kept saying i can't erase the past i SHOULD HAVE RECOVERED SOONER done it sooner etc he sat patiently and said right a letter to all those u feel really guilty towards write everything everything down all the nitty gritty pains of guilt u feel and ask for their forgive ness and THEN STOP CARRYING IT AROUND AND LET IT GO ur not helping any1 by carrying it around and the greatest gift u can give to ur self or any 1 else is to recover. the guilt holds u back so its not serving u

oh my i wrote a letter to all of my family gorey details of the lies the manipulation an open heartfelt confession and honest apology and girls i feel amazing the guilt is still partiaally there but i know now there is nothing more i can do except release it and work on the NOW the past is over i can not right my wrongs but by actively commiting everyday to recovery to myself and to those i love I CAN BE FORGIVEN ICAN LET GO OF THE GUILT AND I CAN GIVE THEM ALL THE GIFT OF MY LIFE THEY DO NOT WANT ANYTHING ELSE THEY DO NOT WANT THE GUILT TO DESTROY ME OR SET ME BACK

THEY JUST WANT ME NOT THE SHELL OF ME LOST IN ADDICTION JUST ME NOT PERFECT NOT COMPLETELY RECOVERED YET just me i am enough and when i am doing my best in recovvery that is enough it's not perfect but it's enoughthe

 guilt serves no1 except edit's fuel

for ed it's negative and it's only purpose is to hold me backir el

eae the guilt and the past and commit to the present moment to have the future of my dreams

love always catriona stay strong and guilt free

enjoy and ed free day