value of thinness -v- value of health

Hello Beautifuls!!!

Something ive been forced to think a lot about this week is health and what a gift it truly is to have a healthy, functioning body. Our value of thinness within the condition is so strong that it outweighs any other value we hold, particularly our value of health. The condition would have us believe the sicker we are the "better" we are. In my distorted state of mind I for one saw good health as failure, I held the ed up on a pedastle, each ed inflicted condition I picked up was like a badge of honour in my battle to self destruct.

Looking back on it i wonder did i ever really take a step back to think what exactly am i trying to achieve here, who is it i am trying to impress?? Obviously not, at the time I hadnt the awareness or clarity to.

But if i had been able to look on with a clear head i would have seen the madness in my theory. There is nothing admirable about an ed, nothing enlightened in shrinking yourself, it proves nothing and impresses no one. People are not in fact looking on at you in awe of your "strength" they are looking at you with pity. A life dedicated to an illness is a life wasted. I struggled for so long to please the condition that i saw recovery as failure or giving up, it just meant i wasnt strong enough to stay sick/thin anymore. This couldn't be more wrong, to recover is not to fail or give up, to recover is to be brave and courageous, to have real strength, it is to choose to move onto something more exciting, to make your own path, to be free and be an inspiration!! Stick with recovery and you are opening up to a real life full of fun, surprises, experiences, excitment...

To overcome the value of thinness has been one of my greatest challenges but i can safely say that now my value for health has risen high above the value for thinness. I no longer buy into the glorification of thinness, it is not worth it for me anymore, my life is more than that. This body is the only one i get and i need it, i am so grateful for it and all it does, i am amazed by it and all that goes on inside, i have great plans for it, there is so many places i need it to take me, so many experiences i need it to soak up, not just now or in the next ten yrs I need it til im ninety!!! So now it is my friend, a part of me and i care for it coz i need it to stick by me!!

If your hanging onto that value of thinness block out the condition voice for a moment and see what is it actually getting you, is it really all that impressive is that what you want to be said you did with your life - mananged to stay under x lbs FULL STOP because in ed we sacreafice everything for it.
Or do you want your life story to be rich, full and interesting.

Being thin is not whats important. What do you value in your friends? sense of humour, generosity, good company and conversation, kindness, caring, loyalty, understanding, individuality, fun, honesty, hobbies, respect, acceptance....or is what they weigh the important part???!!!!!

Condition is not worth it, dedicating a life to thinness is not worth it, set yourself free from this self limiting value and allow yourself experience how amazing life is wen you let yourself fly

Loads of love and hugs
Joanne x x x