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What to do???

So it's all kicking off here --

I've saved loads, I've FINALLY, finally, finally decided to leave my joke of a job and I've the most amazing opportunity to go travelling and basically do whatever I want.

So I've decided to go on a bit of a trip... Chicago first & then.. well opitons open...

& with all this exciting stuff going on - I feel like I'm the nucleas of a whirlwind of details.

And since I'm soooo confused (although enormously grateful & confused) I decided I'm not going to ask anyone I'm just going to put it all on this page and hope the entire, infinite list of possibilities condense down into some sort of clear course of action..

So mainly my head is totally overwhelmed with decisions over plane details....

See I was planning to go on the 28th (which is in 4 days ARRRRRRR) but the thing is the flight is about 15 hours long with about 4hours changeover & if i waited another week I could have my mini laptop ordered in from the US to bring on the flght with me..... at the moment I've no laptop (except a big heavy-weight one like the original brick mobile phones & I think I would be fit to feck it into the nearest bin after having it pull my shoulder outa its' socket for hours)

then I think ...sure i can just read for the journey - I'll fit in at least two books and become more enlightened by the time I'm hitting the landing strip at other side of the world.

But the laptop is so much quicker for writing and wouldn't it be such a missed opportunity?? ... All those potential, undisturbed writing hours missed out on?

But then I'm thinking: - Of course when the laptop's NOT THERE that's the very time you've missed out on writing the NYT BESTSELLER of 2011 - like the notes you hastily threw out in college were the BEST NOTES IN THE WORLD... only after you could no longer retrieve them.... but when you had them they were just fecked in a corner under piles of overdue library books

So dilemma!!!!! .... Of course the in between option is the pen and paper -- to add to my already full extra bedroom of bursting full A4 pads and various fancy notepads filled out since the age of seven ... i really need to edit not add to my collection of pages

So ok I am having a sense of humour about all this seeing as it seems quite insane when I write it all down .... and on top of that I need to be home on the 21st to go to see my writing tutor ... so that's why it would be better to leave early ... but I'm so unprepared

But then how prepared do you need to be???
I need to get my arms waxed but I could literally do that now & I need a few extra cardis (no prob really)

FOUR DAYS thou!!!!!!!!
FOUR DAYS.......

Maybe I'm thinking (another thought, oh my mind's so generous) maybe I'll just book the flight and then i won't have all these other options and i'll just have to deal with it... i can buy a laptop out there and write on that long flight home...

So still confused here...& thinking of all the things I need to do....
**Pack a case ( usually a lota fun, until I'm half way to the aerport and have forgotten a very important pair of slippers or something)

**Get arms waxed
**Get in a dentist appointment
**go shopping
**find a laptop

But even if i do forget something... don't they have shops in america???

SO i dunno ....I thought that would help me come to a decison but my mind seems to be pad-locking me out

So anyway decisions, decisions ....
funny really.....
(?) (?)

Le x

Comments

Excitement

Submitted on May 26th, 2010

I just had to bump this article........

It just shows that life is so different when recovered!!!  Potentially stressful and confusing stressful situations actually sound quite fun!

I think this article is a great example of the excitement and in every day life of recovery.

Lots of love,

Princess C

wowowowo WOW Le I;ve bin

Submitted on October 24th, 2009

wowowowo WOW Le

I;ve bin followin yur posts for ages. you have such a huge inspiring energy. I feel like happiness jumps inside me everytime i read your posts
they're so entertaining adn wise
sometimes i come onjust to see if hyou wrote anything. i'd love to meet you. i think you should write a book, it would defintiely be a best seller. i'd never pput it down.n I used to love reading but now I can't concentrate but you're such a beautiful writer and so easy to read i wish i could read you everyday

i have been struggling a lot but you're such an inspiration it makes me want to not only get better but actually be better
someday i will be like you

Have Fun!!

Submitted on October 23rd, 2009

Hey Le,

Hope you really have a fabulous exciting trip!! What an inspiring story of how life falls into place when we allow it :)

Joanne x x

yea it's pretty exciting

Submitted on October 23rd, 2009

yea it's pretty exciting alright- if I thought about it too much I could probably be getting ready for the next year so I'm sweating as I'm running around dropping things into the case hahahaa cuz I am actually going....

& I haven't made a list in about six months whereas i used to have lists and plans and schedules everywhere .... but I might make a list later on tonight...cuz things are starting to get a little vague haha

But there's always improvisation and there's always shops lol and there's always tickets home and hey if you think you can do something for one day then you can do it for the rest of your life so no matter what arises - it's only a day and life is for living

ah yvonne ... the laffin will release all those great endorphins and set off those natural healing chemical reactions that will heal your muscle quicker lol

lots of love hunnies
Le x

i'm loving it !!!!!

Submitted on October 23rd, 2009

hahhahahahahahha , you have me in stitches and bent over laughing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( not a great thing to do today as i have pulled a muscle in my back !!!!!!!!)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah have a wonderful trip and you have no excuse not too keep in touch!!!!! , i want that little pink laptop to keep me filled in !!!!!

Have a wonderful time , you deserve it ma bonnita bella xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

chow and speak soon
xxyvonne xxxxx

It's all good!

Submitted on October 23rd, 2009

Your life sounds pretty exciting right now with wonderful changes... I can feel your positive energy bursting through my computer :-) Have fun, whatever decision you make

:-)

OMG!!!! OMG!!! OMG!! Guessss

Submitted on October 22nd, 2009

OMG!!!! OMG!!! OMG!!
Guessss what?!!!
"Everything always works out in my favour"

That's my favourite affirmation - I don't know why I ever worry really.... Don't I know "Thoughts become things?!" Don't I know "As within so without?!"
Don't I know I am the ONLY CREATOR OF MY EVERY EXPERIENCE.....

Well I know it now

I've just found the most amazing PINK MINI LAPTOP and there was 400EURO off it in my own town (no waiting for it in the post, no trips to trudge through distant cities for whole days to find something suitable) - and it was much cheaper than I'd get it in America & it's PERFECT, just perfect for my long flight -

OMG it's like the baby that was always wanted...

I am taking this as a sign from the universe that I am meant to go on this trip early... especially since only an hour earlier I was sitting in a cafe, drinking kettlefuls of the most amazing tea you'd ever taste, reading a book.... In the book the woman (it was an autobio) says to God "if you want me to continue to do the work I am doing, you'll have to send me a PLAN B."

It reminded me of Eat, Pray, Love where Liz Gilbert's friend encourages her to petition the universe for help in finalising her divorce

I have done this before after all the Bible says
"Ask and you shall receive"
our every wish may not be granted ( a lot of the time we sub-consciously stand in our own way -- fighting against the very outcomes we are praying for) but if there's a shot what have we got to lose?

This has proved very powerful for me in the past -

I surrendered the situation with my ex-boyfriend
saying "I surrender this situation to you, I accept that you will resolve it in a way that is favourable for me)and after that prayer I never heard from him again. He literally disappeared from my life -(which was not really the outcome I had in mind - I was more thinking along the lines of "marraige proposal") but obviously he was never up to the job in the first place - actually I had created a fantasy/ideal man and projected that onto him. What I was in love with was a dream I had created. In the end it saved me years of useless emotional attachment and pain...

But I have found that it is only powerful - this act of petitioning and surrender - when I am aligned with the "right" energy channel...

So I was sitting in this amazing, regal hotel, sipping fabulous tea from a gold rimmed china cup, reading about someone who completely trusted in the wisdom and power of the universe without ANY DOUBTS - and I asked for my situation to be resolved. I said "If you really want me to continue to write and go on this trip you'll need to offer me a PLAN B"..... well one hour later I was face to screen with "love at first sight." - my little pink laptop

And it's all good now -- I wanna dance and there's no-one to grab - (Why don't computers have arms!!)

It just couldn't be more fantastic and magical & pink is the colour of love and everytime I see it the love is seeping out of me

HAPPY ENDING ... HAPPY, HAPPY TRAVELLING
X
Le x