Denial and the lies EDs tell you....

I have been thinking about this for a few days now and about the distorted perception we hear so much about even though it can feel soooo real at times. Then I was online and found a thing on denial and the different lies that are eating disorders tell us. I thought hey im not that bad ill see which ones apply to me and to my shock they all did. Some are not mine others are but the point is they are lies!These are the lies i hear on a daily basis.

I am your friend.
I am not thin enough.
I am not sick enough other people are sicker.
It’s under control I can stop at any time.
I feel ok I feel fine I don’t feel sick.
That wont happen to me.
I will stop when I reach my goal weight.
It’s just a temporary diet not a serious eating disorder.
I give up I tried I cant do it what’s the point life with an eating disorder is easier.
I need it to survive.
I wont cope with normal eating or weight gain.
It makes me feel calm and relaxed and in control.
I don’t have a problem.
I don’t deserve help.
I can do recovery alone.
Noone gets it I haven’t met anyone that really understands or a T I like.
Im in treatment and nothing is changing.
I like the way it feels.
I only feel beautiful hungry.
It makes me loveable sociable and wanted.
It numbs the pain.
It makes me feel strong.
I just want to be alone.
Anorexia/not eating/losing weight is an achievement.
I feel lost without it, the eating disorder is me I am the eating disorder.
I won’t cope without the eating disorder/scales/behaviours.
I just want to be perfect.
I just relapse anyway or start binging and lose control so I wont try recover.
I don’t want to be fat or people to see me im worried what they will think.
Ill start tomorrow (meal plan/recovery/not exercising or not purging).
Just once more is ok.
Im too fat.
I need to exercise, purge, restrict it makes me feel good.
I don’t care anymore.
Noone really cares about me.
Im not five stone so cant be anorexic.
I must exercise after any food.
I don’t need to keep trying to recover until it gets really bad.
Anorexia and bulimia is a choice that can be controlled.
Engaging in anorexic behaviours wont hurt me unless im very underweight.
I am only hurting myself so what’s the problem.
You can tell if someone has an eating disorder by looking at them I don’t look that way.
Eating disorders are effective forms of weight control.
Refusing to eat makes mw strong I make the rules I am in control.
Everything is so messed up anyway I cant see it getting any better.
I will feel better when im thinner and lose weight.
Im fine people are just jealous.
Scary thin will make people see im hurting.
Im a failure if im not good enough/thin enough/pretty enough/perfect.
You ate waaaayyyy too much you need to purge exercise or fast.
I had a difficult day today its ok if I restrict.
My happiness is determined by the number on a scale, size of my clothes, how thin I feel, how little I eat, how much I exercise.
Being thinner made me more attractive.
Im terrified of weight gain I wont cope.
If im not thin im mediocre.
Starvation is the only way I can cope with my problems.
I will never have a normal relationship with food.
Food equals weight gain.
If I could juggle work college social life and have an eating disorder than I must be really strong therefore I do not need to recover.
Im not a good person.
I don’t deserve to recover.
My meal plan is too much I feel like im constantly binging.
They are trying to make me fat.
I don’t deserve to be happy.
Im ugly worthless and disgusting I deserve to be punished.
You ate breakfast its ok to skip lunch or half do meal plan.
Only eat half/ lie to N and T keep your control.
People wont care about me when im bigger/recovered/ eating normally/not sick.
My family sabotage my efforts anyway so why try recover.
Ill never trust others or myself.
I didn’t do well enough in college etc so therefore I need to hurt myself.
Everyone is on diets these days, everyone counts calories and exercises.
Im not strong enough.
I cant live with or without the behaviours.
I don’t want recovery one hundred percent ill start recovery when I do.
I don’t get hungry.

I wrote out a truth to each lie I would be here all day if I posted them too ha these lies sabotage my efforts at recovery which I do want by the way so maybe this is happening you and you don’t realise or maybe you have some different ones of your own.....

xxx Ciara xxx